My second trimester is only days away from nearing the end however it literally feels like I am still in my first. This pregnancy seems to have gone by way to quickly. Like in the blink of an eye really. With my first pregnancy it dragged on and on and I was so impatient but this time round I feel like my mind is so occupied with looking after a toddler and the days just go by so quickly and there are days that I actually forget I'm pregnant.
So in my second trimester my SPD was in full force. The pain that I was feeling in my pelvic area was just out of this world painful. The pain will come and go but normally it just comes and stays. Some days it's constant but then other days I don't notice it. I wear my belt brace which holds my pelvis together and restricts movement when I walk so I walk super slow and it looks odd but it helps so that the pelvis doesn't rotate as much. I had my belt and brace from the first time I was pregnant which I was given by the physio at the hospital. I was told my SPD was was brought on obviously by my muscles relaxing and doing squats and lunges at the gym didn't help at all and made the pain 10 times worse. This time round is not as bad because I have avoided doing squats and lunges but having SPD is seriously really painful. Not everyone gets it either. I obviously produce a lot more of the relaxant hormone when pregnant than any other pregnant woman which makes my pelvic muscles super loose which is great for labour and giving birth but for the duration of a pregnancy it's just the worst. There is nothing you can do for SPD either. It's just one of those things, and you just have to wait till the baby comes out and then it goes away. So I am counting down till I will be SPD free!!
I haven't been feeling sick or overly tired, I've actually been feeling pretty fantastic really. I thank the heavens that both pregnancy's have been smooth and really good. I can't complain, especially when so many women out there have such a rough time during there pregnancy with morning sickness etc. My weight gain this time round has been decent so far but I don't want to jinx myself. I haven't put on as much as I thought I would have by now however I still have 13 weeks to go so anything can happen. I'm just hoping I won't stack on 21kgs like I did with Atiya because the thought of having to loose it gives me anxiety to be honest. Like I know people say don't stress about it, it will come off naturally blah blah especially with breastfeeding but this is something that does stress me because I love food like anything sweet and my self control is very limited! With Atiya I had to work hard to get rid of the weight by working out, going on walks and controlling my eating and by going on a no carb diet which worked for me. It took me about 8 months but I got there. This time I'm worried because I don't know how easy it's going to be for me to go to the gym or work out and all that with a toddler and new born however if other mamas can do it I should be able to right?! I should probably stop with chocolate everyday but all I crave is sweet like I wish I didn't but all I want to eat is biscuits and ice cream and chocolate. Oh and the loosing weight with breastfeeding didn't work for me! A lot of women drop so much weight with breast feeding but not me, and I breastfed for 3 and half months before my milk dried up.
So this pregnancy has been a winter pregnancy which has been nice but my first pregnancy being in summer was fine as well as the heat wasn't that bothersome for me. I find dressing in winter for this pregnancy harder which is strange I know. I'm living in tights as it's the only thing that's comfortable. I purchased 2 pairs of maternity jeans (one from Asos and one from H&M) and there comfy but they fall down and it's so annoying. I have to constantly pull them up hence why tights work better for me. I purchased maternity tights from Cotton On and they are the most comfortable tights I own! The fabric is super soft and I wear them all the time and they have held up really well even after washing them 100 times! I really didn't want to go and pay a tonne of money on maternity tights so the Cotton On ones suited me perfectly!
So with this second trimester I apologies as there isn't much to report. The only thing that's super exiting is the baby constantly moving and kicking around. I started feeling her kicks and movement at 16 weeks. Literally the best feeling and it was the same with Atiya who I felt move around for the first time at 16 weeks! I had my 20 week scan too and everything was perfect however I was told that the right kidney was prominent. Obviously I worked myself up and worried myself half to death as I wasn't sure what that even meant. However apparently a lot of babies can have one bigger kidney than the other and it apparently sorts its self out later on in pregnancy or even after they are born. I was told Atiya could had the same but it was never picked up on! Cool! But other than that everything else was perfect! The technician even said this baby seems to be a bit of poser. Not sure what she meant by that but I actually hope she kind of is then I will have two little posers in the family.
This blog is pretty short and sweet exactly like how trimester two was for me. Short and sweet.
Until next time...
Organising a first birthday is very similar to organising a wedding. You want it to be absolutely perfect and you want your child to have the best birthday that they could possibly imagine. They may not remember much of it or anything of it at all when there older however pictures can say a thousand words. After a number of messages asking me about Atiya's birthday I thought I'd put it all together for you with all the details.
When I started planning Atiya's birthday I had so many ideas and themes of what I wanted to do. I knew that I did not want to have the party at home because I hate cleaning and I could only imagine how much I would have had to clean after the event. I had started looking at venues and I found that there wasn't any venue that was suitable for a first birthday. I started to worry as I thought if i don't find a venue then I might have to have it at home and that was a scary thought for me. I did some research and I found "Stylish Picnics" on instagram and instantly knew this idea would be perfect! After speaking with Sophie from Stylish Picnics we came up with a theme that would suit my baby girls first birthday. I wanted something neutral but with splashes of pinks and pastels and the park picnic setting was ideal.
With this, I literally didn't have any stress of having to decorate or set up or anything. All I had to do was organise the food, the drinks, the cake and the invitations which is easy enough. Sophie was able to take care of the rest. She provided everything from the cutlery to the plates and the glasses and straws and napkins, as well as the serving utensils. All I had to do was do my part and show up. Oh and no cleaning up afterwards. Winning!
So if you are starting to plan your childs birthday and are like me, hate cleaning, and don't want the stress of having to do much then this idea would be perfect for you. A styled picnic in the park would be anyone's cup of tea!
Below are the finer details of all the bits and pieces that completed Atiya's first birthday and the suppliers that they were purchased from.
Customised Picnic Setup - @stylishpicnics - Email firstname.lastname@example.org - Brisbane Based
DIY Personalised Water Bottles - Made by my sister using Word. She created the labels on a Word Doc then printed out the the pages and cut the labels long ways. She then removed all existing labels from the water bottles and wraped the personalised labels around the bottle with clear thick sticky tape.
DIY Helium Balloon Basket - I purchased the basket from Kmart for $17. It was originally a white washed basket however I used gold spray paint to give it a different look. We purchased 14 pink helium balloons from the dollar store which cost $25.
Invitations - I created the invitations on the website Vistaprint.com.au and also got matching sticker seals for the envelopes Cost me around $40 for 20 invites and stickers. I got magnet tape from Kmart and stuck on little magnet pieces to the back ofeach invitation as well.
Cake - I had my cake made by the very talented Andrea from @lady.buttercream The cake tasted absolutely delicious!
Food - Deciding on what food was tough however I went with very simple options. I got subway platters (it was a hit!) I purchased quiches and small little tarts and cakes from the French Patisserie in Toowong as well as cannolis. I had also made an antipasto platter and fruit cups for all the kids.
Cupcakes - I had my cupcakes made to match my cake and made by Angy from @love_and_bake They were so pretty and yummy. I had each cupcake put in its own clear box with a "Princess Atiya" sticker to give to all the guests as a favour.
Favours for the kids - For all the kids that came I had purchased some stuffed toys and attached a little personalised thank you card from Atiya as a little keepsake.
Atiyas Outfit - Headpiece - @dollcakevintage
Jacket - @bardotjunior
Tutu - @plumnyc
Shoes - H & M
So I'm pregnant again! Its been less than 10 months that I was in this same position but 10 months ago I was heavily pregnant. Right now I am in my second trimester and 15 weeks pregnant with my second baby girl and it feels so surreal because I remember being 15 weeks pregnant with Atiya like it was yesterday.
My first trimester has been interesting. Completely different to the first time round. They always say each pregnancy is different but I was extremely surprised at how my body was reacting to being pregnant especially when I had no symptoms with Atiya. You wouldn't even be able to remotely tell when I was pregnant first time round. I questioned at times if I was pregnant because with no symptoms I wondered is there really a baby growing in my stomach. This time round I found out I was pregnant when I was 7 weeks. After having Atiya, I wouldn't keep track of when I was due for my period. I guess I just didn't care to monitor it. 8 week ago, I remember waking up one Monday morning and I literally couldnt get out of bed. It was like my body was refusing to let me get up. I had no energy to move my legs. All I wanted to do was just not move but that's impossible when you have a baby whose crying for you to get her out of her cot and wanting you to feed her breakfast. Usually Mondays I do all my house work but on this particular Monday I couldn't. The next day it was exactly the same and the day after that and for the rest of the week. I would just wake up and not have any form of energy to move. I literally thought I was starting to get depression because my mood was just down so bad. It got to the point where I obviously knew something was up. I started thinking could I possibly be pregnant? I was thinking back to when I had my last period and funnily enough it was around the Christmas period and I thought shit that was ages ago! The next day I went to the shops and purchased a test and went home and yep I got them 2 lines straight away. I had mixed emotions. The first one was like "really? I'm pregnant again" and another was a whole lot of anxiety came over me. I told my husband and he was cool about it and being a typical guy said "it is what it is". Cool! Thanks babe for your enthusiasm.
I went to bed that night not being able to fall asleep at all. I had so many things going through my head and so many thoughts. My main thought was "am I going to be able to handle two kids"? There are days when I struggle as it is just with one baby let alone having two. I remember the days after I came home from the hospital after having Atiya and I was so tired but would have to wake up every 3 hours to feed her. Can I do that all over again? Especially this time round I will have a toddler who will require so much more attention! I have concerns of Atiya feeling jealous that there is a new baby and my attention going to the new baby more so than her and I don't want her to feel left out or feeling unloved. Because Atiya is still so young and doesn't understand what's going on it makes me feel a little bit better but then again I won't know how she will handle everything when then new baby comes. She may very well loose her shit!
I had these guilty feelings of "will I love this baby as much as I Love Atiya" which came over me. It It's not a nice thought at all but it was a thought that I had which made me feel like such a bad human. At that point I just felt like I haven't thought any of this through at all and I just went into straight panic mode.
Week 9 rolled around and I had over come alot of the feelings I had and just knew that god had blessed me with another baby and it was obviously my time again to mother another one. I was feeling fine however I started bleeding randomly for about 2 days but it was just old blood so I didn't really think much about it. If it was new blood then I would have gone into panic mode! It was Thursday afternoon and I was at home with Atiya and my husband was at work and my stomach started cramping. I was in a great deal of pain so much so that I was crying. I just remeber how horrible this pain was that I have never ever felt before. I called my husband to hurry up and come home while im balling my eyes out. Atiya was watching me hunched over the couch and she was laughing at me. The poor child thought I was playing a game! I called the "Call Out Doctor" helpline and explained to them what was going on and they told me to go to the hospital emergency because they thought I was experiencing a miscarriage. My husband came home and we went straight away to the emergency. Luckily there was not many people in there and I got to see the doctor pretty quickly. By this stage the pain had subsided. I wasn't experiencing the horrific cramping anymore. The doctor asked me numerous times that when I went to the bathroom did I see anything and I had to repeat myself that "no I didn't see anything". They kept making sure as well that I was mentally okay as well and if I needed counseling if worst case scenario were to happen. I responded by saying I'm fine and that I just want to know what is going on. They took my bloods and everything came back fine and the baby was okay. No one knew what the cramping was from. They believed it could have been possibly from something I ate but I don't believe e that was the case. I still have no idea what caused any of that cramping but all I know is that the baby is healthy and growing beautifully.
So you could say that my first trimester was completely different this time round than with Atiya. We still don't know what brought the cramping on however I'm feeling absolutely great now knowing that I have a healthy baby girl growing inside my stomach and I'm feeling positive about the whole two babies under two thing and I wouldn't change anything, not even the timing of this pregnancy. I can just imagine how close my two girls will be and that makes me really exited to see them grow up together.
Until next time...